I’m Alive Again!

I’ve been jobless for almost half a year.

A few weeks ago, I tried applying again at a callcenter company for a technical support agent position. I passed the screening process although the offer wasn’t exactly what I had expected. I was still thrilled though because the office is quite near to my place.

Anyway, long story short I ended up turning down that offer because just a couple of days later another opportunity presented itself to me. Accepting it would mean that I am simply rekindling my passions as a programmer.After my first I.T. company last year, I definitely had no interests in becoming a callcenter agent again. I started reconsidering four months ago. From then, it was a constant battle between the two sides.

At the beginning of this year, the callcenter option seemed to be the obvious and practical option to take. A few signs led me to believe I was in the right direction. But everything changed when out of the blue, I was offered an I.T. job again.

I totally did not expect that at all! It hugely felt like God was trying to save me from another big decision that I was bound to regret down the road anyway. With a renewed trust in Him, I decided to take the plunge and so here I am as a newly reinstated Junior Web Programmer!

Things have been turning out well so far although the work is definitely more challenging than in my previous job. But I’d like to think of this as an opportunity for me to improve not just on the technical side but also grow as a person. I’m learning to deal with people who have personalities which I’ve not been exposed to very often. It’s been a fun (although sometimes unnerving) experience being in this new workplace.

The past few weeks were also dotted with several huge turning points in my life. I’ve been trying my best to live out my promises for the new year and so far I think I’m doing unexpectedly well. Obviously, I’ve still got a long way to go but it just makes me so happy that the year has started out really good so far. All thanks to Him and the several people I meet everyday whom I learn from.

Because I’m alive again…

Let me share to you a new song I came across while browsing a seminarian’s blog. The blogger didn’t share the title of the song but a quick Google search of the lyrics was all I need to track it down. I don’t even remember how I arrived in that blog but it’s a real gem to me now.

This song literally brought chills down my spine after first hearing it there on one of their videos. A Christian song with a catchy music and fantastic lyrics!

“Alive Again” by Matt Maher

The lyrics were inspired by St. Augustine’s words from his Confessions book. (A book I’ve been dying to read since… forever!)

“Late have I loved you, O Beauty ever ancient, ever new, late have I loved you! You were within me, but I was outside, and it was there that I searched for you. In my unloveliness I plunged into the lovely things which you created. You were with me, but I was not with you. Created things kept me from you; yet if they had not been in you they would not have been at all. You called, you shouted, and you broke through my deafness. You flashed, you shone, and you dispelled my blindness. You breathed your fragrance on me; I drew in breath and now I pant for you. I have tasted you, now I hunger and thirst for more. You touched me, and I burned for your peace.”

~ Saint Augustine, from Confessions (Source)

This song brought me up from my rut of despair. Thank you Matt Maher for the great song and St. Augustine for the inspiring words. But most of all, thanks to Him for… everything.

Now, I’m unequivocally alive again!

P.S. There’s also a live acoustic version up on YouTube.